Her name was Marie, hair that looked and smelled like straw,
eyes as if they would turn to liquid at the sight of presents brought by Santa beneath the tree on Christmas morning, big and blue.
Her narrow lips as if she was perpetually on the verge of asking a question
and glances away that make your gut swill.
A soft rasp behind square teeth and an optimistic belief that things could be real and a tongue that lashes out truths that hurt. She's quite beautiful.
She's a friend.
Her name was Jeanette, messy freckles on dry but soft skin,
a nose that points out the humor in all dark things and can grab us a glass of wine, if it's meant for us, on the floor of a living room.
A childish lilt and infectious laugh, but wit like a British prime minister
and a damsel in distress affectation that makes you regret everything.
Cut-up, stubby and selfish hands that write things down about the world in hopes of recognition of being unselfish and true. She's too like me.
I've lost a friend.
Her name was Elizabeth, a curly mane that wreaked of product,
round and brown could suitably describe her with the exception of her distaste, which had a brutal, unrelenting sharpness and cruelty.
So much of her was like cactus pricks, except from where they grew.
I had never seen such frigid carelessness in anything that wasn't hers and also the confused need to become an adult so quickly. But I never really loved her
I've gained resentment.
Her name was Jay, as if someone had pinched gum from the ground and pulled up,
the spindly, wiry, spinning silver fish with raven feathers chunking and whipping in circles around her, some left marks on her eyelids.
She was a time bomb of emotion dogs let off their leashes at a lake.
There was such a mutual need for both relief from and creation of disaster that the biggest lesson I learned was to not feel remorse. She was my greatest teacher.
I remain her apt pupil.
Her name is Mei, when the infinite amount of butterfly effects that preceded her
fell just into the right and uncommon order, producing a dream in its completion, not waking but staying in the fleeting moment that is so often forgotten.
Everything on her is like heated porcelain, so close to rupturing at a breath.
Passion gives way to respect and onto understanding and belief in something that could not be more rare and perfect. Apparently love can be learned.